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To Have Lost It All

by Emberside

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1.
Suddenly my vision fades Something tells me I’m not safe I feel the urge to run away Get me away from this place I think the walls are caving in From a rush of blood to my head The path I’m taking is demolishing right in front of me I feel the rocks falling away From under my feet they fly The web is surrounding my head its a part of me Collapsing on my knees to beg For me to find a quick escape The throbbing pain is circulating through my head Please put me into a state A state of mind Where I am floating with the wind Where I eliminate the pieces And begin To start anew And see whats behind the door And if you call it opportunity Then it can be your out But I could only get a taste Its getting harder to find something that can fill the empty space It seems that there is nothing that can bring me back Compromised by my panic attacks Im cold abandoned left to nature’s evil ways Im pleading to be in a state A state of mind Where I am floating with the wind Where I eliminate the pieces And begin To start anew And see whats behind the door And if you call it opportunity Then it can be your out I feel a hole I feel it rapidly expand Im losing grasp on my reality And I can barely stand Sometimes I think That its not worth it anymore But if I had the opportunity Then I could stop the fall A state of mind Where I am floating with the wind Is the only image in my head I won’t stop till I win Start anew See whats behind the door I need to find an opportunity Before I lose it all Ill hammer at the walls until my arms fall off
2.
Faded 05:45
Lost in a haze and I can’t find my way back Tattered and stained leaving a trail of memories Of comfort and days where I could feel my feet on the ground But they’re slipping out of my hands It’s all I have left The want the need to see and hear again I would give anything to talk to you Déjà vu It’s a shame that the days Of our eternal bond have faded away If I had the chance to fight I might You gave me happiness when I had no more And who would’ve thought With you out of my life I am gone I’m stuck in a thunderstorm Waiting for some of your aura to show While I wait for it to come My fingertips are turning numb I should just run Run away But in my slumber I’ve become cumbersome It’s all in my head The remnants of your comfort and care I just want all the suffering to end Make amends Wait have the days Of our eternal bond faded away If I had the chance to fight I might You gave me happiness when I had no more And who would’ve thought With you out of my life I am gone It brings me pain that the days Of our eternal bond have faded away If I had the chance to fight I might You gave me happiness when I had no more And who would’ve thought With you out of my life I am gone
3.
Gemini 05:49
When I look in your eyes They appear gloomy they’re staring right through me For all an eternity never shifting away I can feel your regret Pulsing its energy making a synergy With what is left of me I can never forget If we stop just pretend Our rapid decaying is now dissipating Then I can make sure that our burdens are put to rest Though I know you don’t want to Hear even a syllable enter your ears But theres thoughts to you that I have never expressed Cause when the sun has gone away At night your frozen touch it haunts me If you can aid I will remain Maybe the voices will stop taunting me We can begin to heal Cut out the blemishes cover the injuries Call me Génesseir cause I can fix you up And in time we’ll build the trust The path to recovery’s littered with obstacles But its impossible if you don’t take the chance And when the sun has gone away My call for you I can’t contain If someone hides behind the pain I just want you to say my name After years of thinking I don’t understand Why when I look at you four eyes meet my glance I haven’t been good to you Ive let things get out of hand It’s only human emotions but I am not a man I’m a beast of no nation impulsive sensations Traverse through my veins and I cannot take control This is not who I am Ignore the facade come back to my arms Show me the damage is not beyond repair And now the sun has gone away My visions keep me up and haunt me If you can aid I will remain Maybe the voices will stop taunting me
4.
This morning the air Didn’t stuff itself down my throat I could focus, behold this Gift I’ve been given Normally I’d be Heeding to the misdirection that Life takes, mistakes, heart breaks And fall into regression I don’t know how The path has cleared But I can’t wait It’s drawing near I need to take The first step home The void is not a place for me I’ve been there once before I don’t have control of my thoughts A beam of light descended warming my decrepit skin It tingled but I welcomed it within Exposing my surroundings and the grimace that they showed Shrouding the world with a glow Shrouding the world with a glow I can’t believe Or realize That all I see Was meant to die Familiarity drifts away I don’t know how The path has cleared But I can’t wait It’s drawing near I need to take The first step home This morning the hands Couldn’t wrap themselves around my throat I can’t feel them peelin’ Ripping through the layers Normally I’d be Fleeing, from the fear and danger That I face, theres no trace in this case I could run forever I don’t know how The path has cleared But I can’t wait It’s drawing near I need to take The first step home I don’t know how The path has cleared But I can’t wait I feel it drawing near I need to take The first step home Its where I belong I need to take The first step home
5.
Limbo 07:11
Colors disappearing all around Melting into the ground Everything I touch turns to dust My fingers are old and rough She lit the candle, walked away Im waiting in the darkness for the day That I can find out why you won’t Say a word to me Or answer my pleas In limbo my heart will remain A whisper in the distance calls for me But it was just a mirage Ill spend a hundred years thinking of The reason you could be gone She lit the candle, walked away Im waiting in the darkness for the day That I can find out why you won’t Say a word to me Or answer my pleas In limbo my heart will remain She lit the candle, walked away Im waiting in the darkness for the day That I can find out why you won’t Say a word to me Or answer my pleas In limbo my heart will remain She lit the candle, walked away (There is no end in sight) Im waiting in the darkness for the day That I can find out why you won’t Say a word to me So answer me please In limbo my heart will remain Ohhhh

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released June 18, 2018

Nick Cereola - Guitar, Vocals, Piano, Composition
James Young - Guitar
Matt Vicari - Bass
Nick Colantonio - Drums

Recorded/Mixed/Mastered by Nick Cereola

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